Soul Choices
For every harrowing challenge I’ve faced in life from childhood trauma, to being born with a painful genetic disorder, to financial disparity, I have been told by spiritual people, “Remember, your soul chose this.”
In May of 2024, I took the 31-day challenge on Instagram to create awareness about Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome, specifically, our type, the rare and life-threatening vEDS (Vascular Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome). I made a series of 90 second reels (bite sized bits) of information on some of the various aspects of our defective collagen connection tissue disorder and how it affects our day-to-day living. Four different, very kind, loving, and well-meaning individuals reached out to offer to help me find the subconscious mental cause to my physical genetic mutation. In other words, illustrate to me, their belief, that on some level, I was choosing to have this genetic disorder and that if they could help me to see that, I would stop suffering from it.
Regardless of whether or not our souls choose our life paths before we are born, once we are born, we get to choose again. So, in case anyone is checking my work, and to all those who believe that I and others like me, who are suffering from medical conditions we were born with, have chosen them for a subconscious reason that is serving us, the following letter is carbon copied to you. Universe, and universal minions alike, hear my choices, for they have changed.
Letter to the Universe
Dear Universe,
If my soul truly chose the life I have now, I’m ready to choose again. Let me be clear, I want to keep living in this life, at this time, but not under these conditions. I’m holding on to the love and discarding the rest.
This is an official notice that any contract made prior to my current state of consciousness is now null and void. If my soul, as a fetus, truly chose a life of trauma, chronic pain and poverty for the purposes of evolution, please note that evolution has occurred. Your job here is done. There is no severance package. This plan is terminated immediately.
I do not need any more painful human experiences that my soul chose before I arrived to teach me how to be a good person. I believe I have reached the top of the goodness meter that I am capable of and become who I’ve always known myself to be. I’m an empathic, compassionate, loving, patient, kind, playful, creative, and forgiving person who also knows how to boldly set boundaries and stand up for herself and others with courage. Therefore, my soul choices surrounding suffering are no longer serving me (if ever they did); and I am now actively rejecting them and making new choices.
From here on out, please note that my soul and body choose unconditional love, health, wealth, wisdom, happiness, and joy. I choose an abundance of love, freedom, ease, creative expression, and fun. I choose financial security, effortless movement, blissful travels, talent, intelligence, authenticity, integrity, and respectful relationships of reciprocity. I choose peace, contentment and success. I choose bold strength, gentle kindness, sensitive power, brave courage, charitable generosity, empathetic caring, tender compassion, playful connection, love, life, and living. I choose laughing with my loved ones, Pulitzer Prize winning, EGOT career success status. I choose gratitude, gratitude, gratitude…so much f*cking gratitude that I’m giving thanks before I receive.
Suffering is no longer needed, wanted, or welcome. Thank you for your services (attempted or realized); but please cease and desist and note that they are no longer requested, and in fact, are openly rejected. In the immortal words of NSYNC, “Bye bye bye, buh-bye.”
Choosing Soulfully,
Yours sincerely,
Sage Justice
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